i was chatting with some people today. i realized that one doesn't have to be too cold or closed up or something, you know what i mean? it's like, i should be open to things. i should spend a bit of my time crawling out of my cold cave and saying hello to the world, opening my mind to new chances. for example, it's not everyday that you get a good conversation with someone. it's not everyday that you get breathless from laughing because of a silly chat or a simple joke.
it's nice to feel appreciated for the time you spent with not just someone, but with people. even if it's just an online chat.
it's nice to share and learn new things from unexpected people. i mean, people who aren't really your close buddies but made you feel like one for sometime. when it ends, it gives a good feeling.. but it's so much better when it doesn't end.
i guess i just miss my best friends.. that feeling of having people around you to keep you sane and insane at the same time. that feeling of assurance.. that they will never leave you. unfortunately, there are uncontrollable things in life. change is inevitable. you will have to learn to adjust, i guess. sigh.. even if it hurts.
woah. tae. continuous ba. if ever i got errors in this entry, forgive me. my eyes are going crazy. eew. o.o
