=p

finally..

went to school yesterday to get my clearance report..

i was expecting a FAIL.. but there. i survived the first sem. it's really surprising. i really really think i was supposed to fail.

then went with roxanne.. we lined up to see our grades. lubel arrived.. roseanne followed.. took us 3 hours. 0.o

when i saw my grades.. well.. i found it amusing. i got a line of 1, then 2, then 3. funny. variety. haha.

well anyway.. a sem and three years to go.. IF circumstances allow. well.. basta. you know what i mean..

liz and alfred arrived. then left. then pizzahut.. then..

'..our hopes and expectations
black holes and revelations
our hopes and expectations
black holes and revelations

hold you in my arms
i just wanted to hold
you in my arms

far away
the ship is taking me far away
far away from the memories
of the people who care if I live or die

and I'll never let you go
if you promise not to fade away
never fade away..'

sometimes..

i wonder if i made the right decision..

uhm. so you want me to say it straight?

how come i am not enjoying college like my friends? they love their school. they're surrounded by good people. i dont get myself..

was i wrong in choosing my course? what's wrong with my school? what's wrong with me? how come i dont feel so happy.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. tell me what's wrong.. is it school? is it my course? is it my classmates? does it have something to do with getting stuck in the past? am i too attached? tell me.. please.. i don't know anymore.. i don't know.. where am i supposed to be.. i mean, what am i supposed to be doing? is it because it's hard to adjust? or am i starting to withdraw again.. what's wrong.. tell me.. what's wrong.. this is too weird.. is it my grades? but.. why.. why do i feel so.. ..... can't comprehend..

tomorrow im off to starbucks katips. sigh. will see my friends back in montessori..

but geez, it won't solve anything!!!!!

oh god.. help me..

sometimes..

i wonder if i made the right decision..

uhm. so you want me to say it straight?

how come i am not enjoying college like my friends? they love their school. they're surrounded by good people. i dont get myself..

was i wrong in choosing my course? what's wrong with my school? what's wrong with me? how come i dont feel so happy.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. tell me what's wrong.. is it school? is it my course? is it my classmates? does it have something to do with getting stuck in the past? am i too attached? tell me.. please.. i don't know anymore.. i don't know.. where am i supposed to be.. i mean, what am i supposed to be doing? is it because it's hard to adjust? or am i starting to withdraw again.. what's wrong.. tell me.. what's wrong.. this is too weird.. is it my grades? but.. why.. why do i feel so.. .....

tomorrow im off to starbucks katips. sigh. will see my friends back in montessori..

but geez, it won't solve anything!!!!!

oh god.. help me..