=p

finally..

went to school yesterday to get my clearance report..

i was expecting a FAIL.. but there. i survived the first sem. it's really surprising. i really really think i was supposed to fail.

then went with roxanne.. we lined up to see our grades. lubel arrived.. roseanne followed.. took us 3 hours. 0.o

when i saw my grades.. well.. i found it amusing. i got a line of 1, then 2, then 3. funny. variety. haha.

well anyway.. a sem and three years to go.. IF circumstances allow. well.. basta. you know what i mean..

liz and alfred arrived. then left. then pizzahut.. then..

'..our hopes and expectations
black holes and revelations
our hopes and expectations
black holes and revelations

hold you in my arms
i just wanted to hold
you in my arms

far away
the ship is taking me far away
far away from the memories
of the people who care if I live or die

and I'll never let you go
if you promise not to fade away
never fade away..'

sometimes..

i wonder if i made the right decision..

uhm. so you want me to say it straight?

how come i am not enjoying college like my friends? they love their school. they're surrounded by good people. i dont get myself..

was i wrong in choosing my course? what's wrong with my school? what's wrong with me? how come i dont feel so happy.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. tell me what's wrong.. is it school? is it my course? is it my classmates? does it have something to do with getting stuck in the past? am i too attached? tell me.. please.. i don't know anymore.. i don't know.. where am i supposed to be.. i mean, what am i supposed to be doing? is it because it's hard to adjust? or am i starting to withdraw again.. what's wrong.. tell me.. what's wrong.. this is too weird.. is it my grades? but.. why.. why do i feel so.. ..... can't comprehend..

tomorrow im off to starbucks katips. sigh. will see my friends back in montessori..

but geez, it won't solve anything!!!!!

oh god.. help me..

sometimes..

i wonder if i made the right decision..

uhm. so you want me to say it straight?

how come i am not enjoying college like my friends? they love their school. they're surrounded by good people. i dont get myself..

was i wrong in choosing my course? what's wrong with my school? what's wrong with me? how come i dont feel so happy.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. what's wrong.. tell me what's wrong.. is it school? is it my course? is it my classmates? does it have something to do with getting stuck in the past? am i too attached? tell me.. please.. i don't know anymore.. i don't know.. where am i supposed to be.. i mean, what am i supposed to be doing? is it because it's hard to adjust? or am i starting to withdraw again.. what's wrong.. tell me.. what's wrong.. this is too weird.. is it my grades? but.. why.. why do i feel so.. .....

tomorrow im off to starbucks katips. sigh. will see my friends back in montessori..

but geez, it won't solve anything!!!!!

oh god.. help me..

sigh

you've got to be kidding.

there's something i look forward to every dismissal..

seeing the faces of my high school friends. naks. but i don't see them everyday ha..

i need something.. anything about adjusting. =P hay..

anyway.. thanks for going to uste. and oooh! the reunion sa kfc banawe. wala lang. i had fun. sigh. =) jessaaa! chaaaam! oh yeah. dont forget mcdo.

i miss you ysai! i miss you cham!

uhm. oh yeah. microsoc sent me an invitation to their yahoo group. wehehe. i gotta pay 150 for the membership plus 300 for the GA. yup. GA, baby. Tia Maria's Malate. great. do i look excited?

anyway.. so i left my big bag and little jug on my seat. one last look in 321 then i went out.. went down the stairs then out of the main b.

there i saw someone standing.. his back facing me. i skipped a bit which looked dumb. i was about to cover his eyes >.<>they were carrying my stuff. uh-oh. shame on me.. but hey. it made me realize that.. friends don't just leave you *snaps* like that. hehe. im thankful for them. they keep me sane in school without them knowing. there are times when my mind suddenly flies off.. to shifting. to transferring. to running. to im-about-to-cry.

anyway.. i planned on going back even if i got my stuff. for some reason, i thought of the class officers. their effort and stuff to stay after classes got suspended. class pres was organizing the buddy thing and was reminding us of the payment and stuff. hey, big help for someone forgetful like me. i wasnt able to go up nga pala. guard didn't want students entering cause wala na ngang pasok! wag na. nilolock na ang mga classrooms.

no choice. good thing i got vina's number so i texted her. then she told me it was okay.. hehe.

anyway, going back to sila roseanne.. uh. she texted me that they're leaving cause it's about to rain and stuff.. uh. so there.

with consience and panda. then conscience decided to leave and panda didnt want to leave me.
then after a series of pero, saan ka nag-aaral? and endless stuff..

oh yeah, i guess the cheesecake cured his little frown. :D

I can’t let go
I don’t want you to know
I’ve been down so long
Could you save me
I’ll fight my way
Just to hear you say
If I go up in flames
Could you save me
- american hi-fi, save me

and this one really hits..

I wish I could fly, I know I can save us somehow.
You thought you were safe and sound but you need a hero now.
You gotta believe even with broken wings,
I've come to your rescue and you can't rescue me.
- american hi-fi, rescue (?)

randomness

so tell me how gay my header is. =P haha. im such a loser when it comes to designing stuff.

college is... so far, so screwed. just kidding. ;D i hope we survive mcr.. hm. joining mathsoc is kinda tempting.. they help you with your math problems eh. hahaha! imagine having a dozen of ate's or kuya's who are there to help you out.

then again, i don't wanna get involve in any activity. haha. i just wanna survive.

hey. i'm sorry.

ginunggagap!

i neeeeed to figure out tabulas layout thing

i am siiiiiick of this layout. it's soooo common. hahahaha! i complain too much. i still got pre-calculus homework. (yes, 4th year hs) and im really really really sleepy. i think ill fall asleep on the floor. mm hmm. whatcha think?

oh. my story's totally screwed. im no writer... but im glad some people enjoy reading my story, however common the theme is. hahaha. what am i saying?

so on saturday, we're off to gateway, my ol buds and i. reunion. ^_^ it's been ages! really. ages ages ages.

im still working on chapter 15.. i dunno. will i be typing away numerous chapters? i dunno.

so where will i be after high school? ill super miss my classmates.. uh, who won't? we're so attached to each other. four years man! four years.. i think ill be making stuff for them. martin's working on this slideshow. nice eh? and maybe ill do the soundtrack thing. ehehe. my classmates are senti. well, most of them =) especially our adviser.

so i dont have school problems (though it's stressing). and college? i dunno how ill be without them. of course, everyone goes through this stage. hehehe. i think im off to.. ust. bs microbiology.

i wish one of my guy classmates would act as the doctor. i know one of them will surely enjoy learning the dance steps.

hehe. enough.

updating...

well. these pictures explain everything perfectly. march 25. lsgh. st. joseph auditorium ata.

hehehehe. nothing much happening. my grades are soooo fine.

i texted with sila rica, fatima, and elaine about the reunion next saturday. =) suggested places? glorietta, galleria, gateway, megamall. ^_^ sana tuloy. olgm friends, actually. i look forward to hanging out with them, especially with the people im super close to. grade school days, love.


as for college... hahahaha.i dont really have a final decision. my ultimate concern's the course. chem. =) and im waiting for the upcat results. results will be released tomorrow. posted sa palma hall, i think. and then the upcat website. =) cant wait. my hopes aren't high anyway. that's UP maaaan!!! hahahaha.